Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Disheartened, Broken and Time full of Crisis..!!

Today at 1.10 am my Pisheymashai passed away. When I last posted about 7 days back from now, he was probably a little better. But Day to day he deteriorated and ultimately this Sunday was taken to ICU. He was on life support system and artificial respiration...peritoneal dialysis etc. Despite all the efforts of the doctors there and us the family members he left all of us.
I cant describe here how the days from 21st passed. I was crying sometimes or the other but was cautious not to be watched by someone. Actually my Pisheymashai despite all odds was a very jolly person who always had a smiling face. Sunday night at about 1.00 am when i was called by my uncle and informed that Pisheymashai is in ICU i was nervous tensed worried and i knew this means chances of his survival is reducing. That night whole of my family was awake and the next morning we all moved to Kolkata by hiring a car. When we reached the hospital and I and Papa visited the ICU room believe i couldn't stand there for more than 5 minutes as i couldn't see the condition he was in. He was fully controlled and supported my machines. I was terribly sad tears rolled down my eyes and stopped. Now today nearly at 1.00 am we were informed by Hospital staffs that he's in very critical condition. At 1.10am they told us that he has passed away. My papa being so strong broke down to tears so did Mom. I was holding mine and still holding as I am supporting my family and telling them not behave likewise and if i suddenly broke to tears who will be a support to them ? I m crying now and should stop writing now !! I have many jobs pending now mainly that of Final Sem project, Learning Python and Accessories , A LTSP implementation course or classes which we have to take at Kolkata.........all these but My life is at sudden stand still now. I don't know what to do , when to do ? I think papa will move to Kolkata today and i will be here with Mom. I don't know how to manage my Aunt in this terrible conditions. Lets Hope GOD helps us to overcome this situation.
Talking about GOD he didn't listen to me despite my prayers everyday. I don't know why but my faith, believe, respect in GOD has received a major shock after this incident today. Miracles do Occur but to whom I don't know...I did hope a miracle to occur and so Prayed to GOD daily but miracle didn't happen. So now I find that if its in fate nobody can change it xcept GOD, but he didn't change ours .......... !!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

A Little Better..

Sometimes in life You feel so much hand cupped and weak that nothing seems like going ur way.
Stopped writing blogs or rather i was so Upset and engaged with something that i didn't get the time too..
My last blog entry traces back to 3 days before when Sayam and I had nice time as he instructed and helped me learning XML, little about RSS and mainly Python. The day after that i had plans to again continue the study of Python when in the morning I heard that "Pishemashai" is detected or diagnosed having a malignant tumor in lungs. Though i am miles away from Biology still i knew what it meant. He has a dreadful disease which i dont want to take the name of. That day whole family was just like a stand still. My father being the elder of brothers and my Aunt living just few kms from our house Father got into huge pressure as he knew it was time that he will have to play a major part. After 2 days means on Monday at last after many confusions and quarrels and varying opinions we all decided to take "Pishemashai" to Apollo hospital in Kolkata.
That day My father , Aunt, Two Uncles (father's colleagues) went with the ambulance taking my "Pishemashai" to Kolkata. Pishemashai was very ill then as approximately he was 5 days without food. He couldn't eat and so health was going down drastically. After reaching Kolkata the rushed him to hospital and today we are informed that he' little better..all the tests are done..treatment will proceed soon..he is been feeded through Saline. My papa is still there so is my aunt. I hope and pray to GOD daily that he will be well soon. These days I was with my Mom and another aunt at home just to keep things going here and to support mom and aunt.
Hope everything gets fine soon and i as soon as possible get back to study and Python.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Effective Learning

Yesterday i was about to write the blog but was unable to do i was feeling terribly sleepy. Yesterday Sayamindu helped me to learn Python and also got knowledge of RSS and XML from him only. i was being taught through Google talk (Google chat messenger). It was a great experience and upto 2.00 am in the morning i was doing all these stuffs.

Morning was not very eventful..except we had our first class tests...:P. There was a organized arrangement of seats according to roll number and bla bla... but no effective use because we all copied..:P , But writing continuously for a hr is miserable really .

Also a little disturbed about that my "Pisheymashai" which is the Bengali term for husband of Aunt , is ill . The disease till now is not diagnosed properly , but from symptoms and reports everything not seeming very good. I am very worried about it along with everyone of my family. Hope he gets around fit quickly and recovers from his illness. I whole heartedly pray to GOD..plz GOD listen to my prayers , cure him .

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Busy with World Cup 07

After college stuffs today solely concentrating on Cricket World Cup 07 ..

gr8 news is from tomorrow there's class test and i know nothing...God help me...:(

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

I did few classes !!

Today is a big day for me..without wasting time at the mess i went to college..but gr8est thing is i did 3 classes .!! I attended two classes of Industrial Management and also one class of Advanced Java..!!
In the evening late hrs...i ws totally ragged (mentally) by some gr8 persons of my locality..after this type a mental ragging i m alive and happy..........i Survived........ :)

Monday, March 12, 2007

A slaggy day..

From the very morning today just did round about nothing..saw a movie "A walk to remember" enjoyed it really, i liked the story. After that again sat with Lekho and started preparing bengali lectures for Bijra High School. Ohh the task is really tough, actually i m master in making mistakes while writing bengali spellings.
Today during translating docs into bengali i added something to make the task easier , i turned on my cd player with old bengali songs of Hemanta Mukhopadhay, Manna Dey , Shymal Mitra etc..dude beleive it or not i really njoyed listening to the muzic and doin my job...oh I LOVE BENGALI MUZIC......(Old bengali muzic only :p)...

Catch all of U Later.......................:)

Sunday, March 11, 2007

I drove Papa's Car

Really friends nice to announce it rather today just drove my Papa's Maruti 800 . i drove round about 20 kms today i m very happy and slowly gaining confidence...I hope ! Thats what we call "Practice makes Man PERFECT ". Hope i gain more confidence and get more matured as a Driver (Don't take it differently dude.. Being a Driver is certainly not my dream ...:) )..
Yup also another thing, i wrote one full page in bengali by its a amazing software to use. But the saddest news is when i try n paste it in Bijra Blog it changes to a crap. Kd da told ki he will sort a way out..hope he does ! otherwise my effort wud go in vain..:(

Signing Off today buddies catch u all later................:)

Saturday, March 10, 2007


Lemme share with u a small incident. At night I think it was rnd about 1.00 am , and i was rather unusually busy with LEKHO (A Bengali Unicode text editor) to write a blog for dgplug . From the morning i was kept busy by a unusual letter in bengali "khandotto" , from the keymap of lekho i cudnt find or sort out how to write it. So at that time suddenly Papa came to me for some of his problems in writing a particular dvd , and i rather casually asked "khandotto banglay ki kore lekhe bolo to ? aami anek khujeo LEKHO te pelam na | " which when translated stands as how to write "khandotto" in bengali ? i cudnt find it in the keymap of LEKHO . U beleive it or not he didnt even c the keymap and all stuffs and told try "T and hasanto". I knew how to write "hasanto" and after that i tried using my Papa's funda and really i succeded . I guess thats why he is FATHER.

A big day just passed...

bloggin again..2 days back VC and IDG came to Bijra for a visit. I was really in Chaps but i m happy that evrythin did go well. VC knew me by name and really i m overjoyed about that..Indra da also had a surprise in his bag. A really smallest ever computer running on 12 v dc , u beleive that ?? i didnt but i later found it out as a raw truth.. All praised our work at Bijra and suggested us in many ways to improve our job. For Complete story visit Bijra offcial blog .

Aaj ke liye itnahi... :)

Monday, March 05, 2007

Writing again.....

After so many days i m writing usual lazy word defines me totally. Neways exam has finished long results also a handsome bit 8.52 . Neways not vry happy..hoped to get more...neways actually ur need and happiness increases as much as u get..and also keeps on increasing. Neways collg days r nearing a close .. so "Man hai thoda dhuki dhuki" . Though as usual i m not xpressing myself ..I usually try n hide my sunshine also tells ki i m "unpredictable" may still now i feel bad..2 days back subscribed to mailing list of KDE translation but till no reply..i dont know why ?? so i m little disturbed . Now some personal problems also bindin around me, I know what i m writing and so my close grp of friends. I have to take a decision a crucial decision of LIFE..